Thoughts for today..

This has NOTHING to do with wedding planning, but these are just some thoughts that are on my mind today and I just need to write it out...

I'm so frustrated with myself right now! Why am I ALWAYS striving for the bigger and the better? When will I just be content with the things that are within reason? For example, this apartment we're so close to signing the lease on. I KNOW without the both of us working it's NOT going to work. Why am I will to take the chance that Siah will magically find a job in a week because I want him too? He hasn't been able to find work for 6 months and I'm just expecting it to fall in our laps because I want this place SO bad? We can "make it work" with just my income, but the idea of living so tightly check to check is just not ideal. What if tomorrow he was offered a job halfway across the country? Would WE be willing to go with it like other people are and be away from each other for so long? Would WE sacrifice our time together for financial security? I would like to think we would, but I'm not so sure. In a way, the "economic crisis" is a good lesson for us to learn while we're still young and without children, but I need to get past the "OoOoOhhh shiny" of the moment to learn the lesson already! Can we live without underground heated parking? Yes. A pool? Of course. Then why am I so determined to have these things? I know part of it is that I want something to call my own. Something nice. Something I'm proud to "show off". But a cheaper, more ideal apartment can do that too! Plus, with this place there is NO way we can have a wedding within the next year. NO POSSIBLE way. We have our ENTIRE lives ahead of us to have nice things. I just need to get over wanting them right now in the moment.

And, yeah I know I'm a big loser if I have nothing better to do than to blog at 1o on a Friday night... :]

Anyways...just spilling my brain for the world to see..

-Melissa

Less is More.

So, recently I was looking at an old classmates BEAUTIFUL wedding photos. Everything seemed so simple, but gorgeous. Who says I NEED a zillion flowers, or some amazing cake, or even a hall for a reception?

Those aren't things that make our day what it's really about.

I'm certainly not saying we don't want these things, all I'm saying is when it comes down to it I don't want to start my life with my husband $20,000 in debt.

Honestly, all I really want is a small wedding off of Lake Superior (which won't happen thanks to the city of Duluth). Who is it really going to hurt to have 100-150 people standing on one SMALL part of the MASSIVE beach? I don't want to have to fork out $1500 to get married on an owed part of the beach, that really isn't as beautiful and open as the spot I like.

Then after the ceremony I want a fun reception. Nothing pricey. Like music, cake, soup and sandwiches! ;)

AND NO ALCOHOL! (seriously, there is always that one drunk guy that has to cause a scene and unnecessary drama. I don't wanna get all Bridezilla, but it's OUR day, not just another drunken night out, SO DON'T BE THAT GUY!! And why would I want to pay for other people to get hammered? Stupid stupid stupid)

Why does is have to be a big deal? Whether we spend $20 or $20,000 at the end of the day I will still me Mrs. Melissa Williams and that's what matters to me.

I've been reading around and finding great sites to keep a wedding under $2000 and these weddings are gorgeous.

I know most of my friends and family will have a hard time believing this, but I'm not making this into a BIG deal. I won't throw a fit if my flowers are the wrong kind, or the color of my bridesmaids dresses isn't PERFECT. That's not what people are looking at. Honestly, WHO CARES!

Anyway, enough for now. My brain has too many thoughts-a-brewin. :]

-Melissa

Just an idea...

So, the wedding planning begins. We, as a couple, have decided to start a blog about our journey and experiences through planning our wedding.

We'll post the ups and downs and all that good stuff.

Everyone's opinions are greatly appreciated as well!

-Melissa